Doors of choices

When you were young, you used to swing with joy

Now you are old, you make that noise hesitating to open

Feels the time has passed fast leaving back only trails.

I have passed through you my life

Through you I have grown

Often I wonder what spread that glimpse of light

As I push you, I see wonders,

Having its own place to hold,

Some fading, some shining,

Some silver and some gold

I see you everywhere,

All the places, here and there.

Two different world rest at your feet,

It is at you, where they meet.

Still the choice remains ours

Some mistakes committed still affects,

But there is no more waiting.

Wash away the despair,

And walk towards the light

No more reminiscing now

Need to fight the battle somehow,

Keep no place for confession

So many doors of choices,

Come on make up the mind and,

Make the right choice.

May his soul rest in peace

Late Mr. S.K. Rai,

We may have encountered or heard of many great people, so did I, I am blessed to be lucky enough to share the moments in this life. Toady I would like to pay my homage with deep integrity, to our late sir S.K. Rai who passed away on 28^th January 2009, and pen down my emotions and sentiments in devotion of his remembrance. He was not just a best teacher but a caring father, a loving husband and a perfect human being, second to none.

Time passes with every tick tock of the clock, yet the wound inside my heart is fresh and deep, still bringing tears yearning for the moments to come back.

The last picnic with his family.

I can never forget the date (28^th Jan. 2009) in my life that turned my heart into brittle. The night before I was feeling quite anxiety and my sleep was delayed for I was having butterflies in my stomach as our class 12 BBE result was going to be out the very next day but I never knew until the next day that my anxiety will meet the worst nightmare. I was stunned and numb for some time as the cold news pierced deep inside making me maim of all feelings and senses. Our favorite and one of the most respected teacher sir S.K. Rai has passed away during the picnic with his family. The last picnic that will never be forgotten, who would have thought that the day which began with much joy would end like this?

I was drenched in woe; I couldn’t eat properly that day. Tears rolled down from my heart never gesturing to stop as I foreshadowed the memories. I still feel he is with us, smiling and gazing upon us.

We awe him a lot, we are very grateful for everything sir has done to us. The fruit we enjoy today is from the plant sir has helped us to nurture.  Our love and respect for him will never be in dearth. I wish I could turn the hands of time and turn the barren land into green field once again.

Why do all good people have to leave the world so early? The bitter truth of life it is, every one has to kiss the death one day or other, and no one can help it. The uncertainty of life ripped the sky apart and brought the bitter rain. I dwell here like a toddler, helpless but I pray with all might, may his soul to reside in heaven with evergreen peace and almighty to bless his family.

He will always be remembered and missed…..We all loved him a lot but god loved him more…..may his soul rest in peace…

One of my class mate and his student, Kezang Deki shares her gratitude and emotions captured in this beautiful poem....

To sir with love (Dedicated to late sir S.K.Rai)

Dank and oppressive is the darkness,
The world is petrified; the night is full of stillness,
Sinister silence rules the hours of night,
The celestial bodies conceal in the gloomy sky with plight.

I am left shattered in the moment of dark,
So brief! Your presence seemed only like a spark,
If only you would return to wipe my tears,
For I make the most earnest of prayers.

My soul bleeds and out the tear drains,
Thy absence makes my soul and body maim,
What thou among the years have never known,
Is my love and gratitude but now I mourned.

A glimpse of that world when you were there
Fades far away, dissolves and disappears clear,
Never knew that I have to see this day,
For thine absence my heart is never at gay.

Death has come with suffering, without pain,
Like a mystery without evidence to be lain,
With broken heart, I stand in sheer obscurity,
And purity,” may you enter the heaven of serenity"

Kezang Deki
XII sci (2009)
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Wishes from my heart....

KUTSHE RINGWA SHO

In this very auspicious day let us gather our souls and join our both hands making one and pray for our vigilant and kind hearted, Druk Gyalpo  Jigme Singye Wangchuck  very prosperous and long life and make this unique date(11-11-11) a memorable one.

 

At the age of 17, His Majesty shouldered the fragile country,

Under him the sun shined with never diminishing light,

Of peace and developments with secured boundary,

And we stand here with immense gratitude and delight.

A true hero bounded by empowering personality,

Great is his deeds and kind is the heart,

Brought the country into evergreen serenity,

And our love and our gratitude shall never be in dearth.

 

Keen my mind I lay my soul,

Under your undying humbleness and guidance,

I pray with my heart for peace to dwell your soul,

With great health and happiness to embrace,

We wish your Majesty prosperous long life,

With utmost joy and loyalty,

We seek to remain your subjects for all coming lives,

In the country cherished with sustainable tranquility.

Cheerful my heart, beats with immense energy,

As the happiness overwhelms every heart of the nation,

On this auspicious day I salute with integrity,

And pray for the peace to prevail for generations.

LONG LIVE OUR KING

  

Just call for me..

Please don’t cry, the rain has gone

Sun will make us dry, don feel alone

Why r u so scared, every thing is fine

U will be cared, just see the sign

Why you are so sad, never feel alone

Don’t be mad, bad times are long gone

Don’t worry the cold, jus close your eyes

Though I am not bold, for you i can even melt the ice

I will hold the time, you just need to see

Make everything fine, you just call for me

I will make everything fine, you just call for me

World is full of surprises, brightens as the sun rises

Life plays its role, which remains in our soul

Season changes fast, nothing remains same

Don worry coz, i will be the same

As trees shed their leaf, my heart cries in grief

The sunlight seems fading, the darkness seems never ending

Why are hurting yourself, let me take you to my place

Let me make you save, bring smile in you pretty face

I will hold the time, you just need to see

Make everything fine, you just call for me

I will make everything fine, you just call for me

I will make your day, everything is fine

Whatever you say, I want to be your lifeline

Whenever you feel bore, I will entertain you

I will love you more, always be there for you

When the world tumbles down, and everything turns dark

I will always be around, we will built the happy ark

I will shine for you, still bring smile on your pretty face

Just give me clue, i will make happy place

I will hold the time you just need to see

Make everything fine, you just call for me

I will make everything fine you just call for me

All left is memories....a part from my amatuer rap song...

You can see my face, as I can see yours

Girl come to me and we could talk for hours

Be the world that will never change

Be beside me as my life needs rearrange

We can do things that we never did

Let’s spend our life doing crazy shits

Fly above and kiss the blue sky

Lets never see back past and say goodbye

Lift the spirit as we walk together

We can swim the ocean and stay young forever

You be the one for me and i can be yours

Girl wait for me so that i can give you flowers

Face the world together, happy place together

Living in dreams which is much better

I will say goodbye never ever forever

And I will always love forever and ever and ever

I still remember the nights we often sing

With the memories I am here lying

Under the sky so wide and silent

Only the struggling heart left to repent

Now you are taken away from me

I pray to god just for glance to see

You’re smiling face in the happy place

Now I cherish remembering all those happy days………..

A thing to Think upon

Being a human we all have our own personality, and way of seeing things. We are driven and shaped in kind of society we live in and how we are brought up and it also depends on the mentality we develop over the time through various phenomena. Yet we do have some artistic ability deep rooted in one’s mind of having our own notion about something be it small or big but still debatable because we tend to do it without really having a bigger picture or being familiar with it.

Human nature it is then we are implied to and are confronted as life goes on. It is something we don’t really tend to notice or our ignorance has shadowed it.

We may have often noticed among ourselves commenting or judging others without really knowing them closely. I too do sometimes and I feel it to be something I should do away and look under the surface also. Actually we all should do that. Even if somebody is refusing to accept the fact we should not jump to conclusion saying him or her to be false, rather we should understand them first and make them clear, helping them understand. In that way a harmony can be developed without any complications.

Giving a pseudo statements and promises is one of the worst acts against humanity, it can mislead a person wasting energy and most importantly time. We can only know the affect if we are the victim. It really does not matter what the degree the situation is but what really matter is what we are and impart in that particular time and space. Because once the trust is broken it is really hard to have the same intensity of faith and trust. “One who does not take small things seriously can’t be trusted in big things either”, as Albert Einstein has rightly quoted, so small things should not be ignored.

“The ugliness we see in others is the reflection of our own nature”, others just acts like a mirror where our true nature is reflected. When we tend to judge somebody or something we forget to appreciate them and land up of the notion which can be precarious for our morals if we move on like this.

Some may find it very funny, some may find weightless, some may even find it negligible, but one thing we should know that small things make bigger things and daily activities be it professional or social shapes us and our nature as a human being.

I think the charity should begin at home, if one wants to change the world; one should change himself/herself first.

Trying to sing in pain...

Under the sun many sweats dropped,

A bit of conspiracy for a body thousand chopped,

Eyes drop to close for the yearn of nap,

Wicked from bitterness, still it tries filling the gap.

So many nights with the stars stayed awake,

Putting thoughts and effort into work,

Killing every ounce of energy in the body,

And the same song all night as a company,

Rolling and rushing over the huddles,

Trying to move forward, pushing harsh paddles,

Riding on a triangular wheel, writing with invisible ink,

Destiny seems glimmering at the brink,

Diligence seems bit sugarless indeed,

Demands every essence in need,

Punctual always on the top utter,

Then comes the bread and the butter,

Dwelling just as a toddling cocoon,

Soon to be hatched with adorable wings,

Abiding all the attributes with boon,

Ready to face the uncertain kinks,

But still then many stars need to explore,

Still many wounds to be sore,

Winding in the circle of toils,

But shall harmonize with hoping rejoice,

Many things left unturned,

Still despair should remain out of mind,

Should feel free without any angst,

But allied with a sense of responsibility,

World can slow down or it can hop,

But time shall never gesture to stop,

What we have now will not be rewarded again,

But still we will try to sing in the pain.

Blessed to meet the Royal Couple

Many of us were very upset that we couldn’t be a part of the royal wedding, never knew that god will listen to this yearning heart but he did listen to the prayers and we got lucky yesterday (26th Oct. 2011). The royal couple is in Delhi and will be leaving to Rajasthan in few days but in mean time they granted us an audience. I am very much sure that the entire Bhutanese student studying in Delhi must have been on the top of the world when they heard this exciting news.

Well after being aware of the happening news, preparation was already begun among ourselves. Everyone was excited and filled with enthusiasm, and of course who wouldn’t be? It is the most precious life time opportunity.

Everyone dressed in formals as to pay homage and be as presentable as possible. Our excitement reached its peak we just couldn’t wait so we left for embassy very early and I was very much pleased to see many Bhutanese gathered there. Everyone was talking about the royal couple and how excited they were, with the smile and joy in their faces, showing their excitement. Even the birds were flocking around out of excitement and singing in joy.

As our eagerness met with the royal couple, flowers bloomed in my heart thinking how lucky and blessed we are. His Majesty introduced the queen with a kiss assuring a complete love and adoration, and we were very privileged to see this magical moment. It was completely out of this world, and no words can describe the feeling. Seen many but never seen like them, and they are the jewels that glitters brighter than anything. They are the best couple ever in this world, “the kind and the beauty”.

Everybody were feeling nervous and were in deep awe as King started to address us, I was having butterflies in my stomach too but our benign King made the scenario very cozy and comfortable, and after all he is people’s King. He gave us the precious advice amending us the importance of values, skills, wisdom, and experience and made us remember what we are and the purpose of being in India. All in all he summed up his golden words with a statement,” Please remember that you all are Bhutanese studying in India, you are representing Bhutan”. Everyone was moved with this statement, and very much true we are indeed a glimpse of our nation.

It was one of the awesome days in my life, never thought that we will get this kind of opportunity, I am sure I must have done something good in my previous life that I was blessed yesterday. We promise to be best we can and serve in future with utmost loyalty and be abided by the Driglam Namzha.

KADRINCHEY

LIFE AS I THINK....

We may have heard people often talking about life and trying to explain its meaning through self experience and knowledge and trying to be reasonable enough of being alive. But have you ever sat down scratching your chin with eyes glaring at the ceiling and wondered what life is?

For a naive person like me to be really sure of life and argue on that will be an oblivious of my stupidity and unethical. For life isn’t a mathematical equation where there is an solution to that, nor it is a piece of cake that can be eaten, it is rather a very phenomenal and hierarchy of individual inter relation and reactions where certain things are never accounted and never acknowledge.

For me I think life is a journey where everyone is the passenger and the fate is the driver, where different people are dropped at different stations. It is a journey where people are always compelled to prove themselves with uncertain eventualities and consequences, not just as a self satisfaction but as a responsibility not condemn but important, for one's well-being and others. On the other hand success has been world wide hunted; people are trying to be the best and of course in this present particular juncture everyone has to be capable with all the attributes.

While so running after success isn’t undemanding job or a happy journey. Some crawl in the dark and some fight in the rain of shadows but very few tends to see the light at the end of tunnels and that proves to be the man who is determined and looked upon. But is success really that one out of all? Is there more paramount than success, is it worth of living for success? Well everyone must have something to be reasonable about this and bargain with own comprehension.

“Try not to be a man of success but try to become a man of value”, as Albert Einstein has rightly quoted. The true virtue and moral ethic is much greater than the success, we have almost forgot the real reason of life. We tend to deviate so much that we become someone undesired and nothing really matters whether you are a successful man or not but what really matters is our values and correct attributes along with humanity rather than vanity. Fame vaporizes, money goes with the wind, and all that is left is our character, which is the permanent and more of all I think is true verdict for mankind. More of I think a man of value is a man of real success, no bargaining about this because if one thinks right it’s obvious of good result.

When you wake up you hardly remember the dream you saw last night and some wonder whole day trying to figure it out, life is just like a dream. So we got to make something worth while in short stay in this world and we should stop dreaming about some magical rose garden over the horizon, instead we should enjoy the roses that are blooming outside our windows.

 

THE STAR THAT I NEVER SAW....AGAIN!

I lay here under the sky with no star to twinkle,

Stray thoughts flowed with no say of meaning.

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I still gazed but the sky didn’t wrinkle,

And my eyes were left hours in its yearning.

 I wonder where you went that night,

At least you could have said me goodbye.

With you not here it wither my delight,

My heart shivers, as you left me to cry.

Often, I said words you may never hear,

Will now remain as a secret for it is banished,

But I will wait here with reasons to bear,

Come soon, as I long for answers to be unleashed.

Strange I feel you chose this way,

Strange I feel you forgot all the happy days,

Feel that the guilt is in me so I lay,

Drenched in tears in the sea of dismay

Pour me some sweet mercy for I am thirsty,

Wounded deep inside, I sigh for medication,

For I am imbalance so is my soul drifty,

And there lays my body left with no emotion.

Often I shout your name in my dreams,

Often have to stay awake in pain

Used to laugh but now I scream,

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Only making my emotions maim.

My soul sore as the heart beat is ceased,

Wondered for your eye to share a tear,
For the last time, hold me please!

But lay my numb body with no earth to bear.

My soul feels the warmth as the wind blew,

Looked back at my body with final goodbye,

With the clouds I sailed, with the birds I flew,

But still see no sign of the star in the sky.  

Just to know that water is hard sometimes....

Where am I? What is this place? How did I reach here? So many questions left unanswered, I was in state of total addlement. I heard a sound from the bushes behind; I turned immediately just to break my anxiety, there was nothing. I was really in thick soup, knowing nothing about the place, wondered around with an unclear mind.

Hours passed walking around; my tongue was desert dry and I was badly in need of a taste of water. I continued my quest in pursuit of water, to quench my burning tongue.

Many hours passed lurking in amidst of disgust. Poked nose at every nook and corners but the effort met with dismay, there was no sign of water, and my hope was between an evil and a cliff. 

I didn’t move for while and tried to avert my every strength and moisture in body possible. At times I lost myself in discouragement but didn’t lose my faith and still had urged to survive, being a human who doesn’t want to live!?

By the time my angst has reached its highest peak, I reached to a place where I saw many birds flocking around a place behind a large bush. This scenario replenished my hope and happiness like waterfall cascaded over me, and I took a long gasp to compensate my hours of discouragement.

I quickly rushed through the bushes but with painstaking not to disturb them, just to show an utter gratitude for their help. I was very pleased to see a small lake with many brooks which joined the lake with little shook. I stood there under the shadow by the trees, came the gentle breeze above me and whistled with the leaves. Hence the birds flew after quenching their thirst, and vanished in the blue azure.

Lying there in the warmth of nature, I almost forgot how thirsty I was, and the heat was killing me. So I went down the lake side, and after having some clear look at the water, I jumped into it. To my amazement I hit to something very hard; in that little moment, I was confused what could hit me? There were no rocks when I looked into it; a second later I found myself kissing the hard cemented floor of my room…..I was dreaming! What silly of me!

  

MOTHER- a universe to me...my living legend.

In the ocean of people it was hard for god to reach everywhere and whenever he was needed. So as a pill for that pain, he made mother, an angel second to none and a savior of many people we know, as of now and we will know in the near coming future.

 Love and care is something, we can never measure even with the advancement of science and technologies but we know deep inside our heart that mothers love and care for their children more than anything in this mortal world even to their life. We can’t thank god enough for blessing us with so affectionate and priceless gift called mother.

They are the one who took great care of us, carried us in their womb with much love and affections for nine months. It is said that,” a human body can bear only up to 45 Del (unit) of pain. But at the time of giving birth, a mother feels up to 57 Del. This is similar to 20 bones getting fractured at a time.” We can imagine how much of pain mothers feel just to give birth to us, it is like a debt we can never pay even we get profoundly rich.

They are always with us, as sun in the day, as moon and stars in the night, shining and glistering, brightening our life with hope. They are always with us providing a helping hand making possible for us to glyptic our future into the one we will rejoice later on.

They always loved us and they will always love us, their love is the immortal candle which will never flicker even in the tyrant gust.

I believe that love is blind,” my mother started loving me before she saw my face”. One of the best message I have ever read, “I believe in love at first sight because I have been loving my mother since I opened my eyes.”  

At times I can lay my heart for you, seen so many but never seen like you, for you I breathe, and so for you shall my heart beat cease. You are my trust worthy friend and I confide into you, for you my angel, my love for you shall never congeal. I pray mighty god for your well-being and I wish smile never vacate from your face and ease your loving heart with all the happiness in the universe.

I want to apologize if I have done anything wrong that hurts you, it was obvious stupid of me, but I know you will forgive me and I pray everyone to refrain from doing horrible unjust to mothers. Remember mothers are living angels, who cook for us, sing for us, care for us and who pray for us- cos they are our universe, our living legend.

AN AMATUER RAP SONG.....RANDOM THOUGHTS....

Spread your wings, fly in the blue sky

Or kiss your life and say the world good bye

Take your time or you never get the chance

Listen to beat and just do the dance

Spin to the left and spin to the right

Just do the same every day and night

Gotta find a reason in the deep darkness

And live the life with all the happiness

Challenge everywhere got to be ready

Hold your ground and try to be steady

It is total race gotta keep the pace

Unaware sometimes it will smack your face

Stop counting days and be confident

Go to the places that we never went

Perfect is nothing world has flaws

Don’t fear the world nobody has claws

Feel the rain and jump if you are bore

Touch the beauty and ask for more

There is no need to cry over your fate

Start a new life that is what it takes

Fight the world for the fight for right

Nothing is wrong, if you fight for right

Give the answer if they need for real

Say the things that what you feel

Don’t do things that will make you cry

Truth for the truth and lie for the lie

Change the plans and say the name

Make a plan and play the game

Do the things but don’t hurt yourself

When it goes wrong don’t kill yourself

See the world in a different way

What it is no one can say 

Thugs everywhere better prepare

Best to start fast, you better be aware

Time is rolling, rolling over time

Drink the beer with little bit of lime

Think it real and make it real

Feel the feel and seal the feel

Burn the pain and burn the past

Stand on the feet or be the last

Life is numbered like the pages in the book

Wake up fast with little bit of shook

Waste the time you waste the life

Kiss the death and kick the life

Do nothing and regret all the time

Or do mistake and learn all the time

Look above and see the sky

Look at bird and learn to fly

Get the power with little bit of pray

Wish for the real for all coming days.......

WORDS TO CARE

As the rain from the heaven falls gently on my cheek, my heart mystifies into the love and care of you. The warmth of my body cherishes my soul emitting a hope to face the eventual world around us, and reminded me that you are still breathing with me.

Nothing really matter when I put you in front, happiness was always a part with you. Things really seem strange with much unknown objections, still not yet clear and digesting but with you by my side, spell broke and everything seemed normal.

Though the calendar on the wall is different, nothing really changed, just the rain falls from my eyes now.

Never asked for the help but you were always behind me to support me, beside me to walk with me as I face the world, and in front me to lead me to the right path. Now! Who is there to laugh with as a friend and confide into.

You helped me framed my life and I can’t even thank you, you are gone so far away from me into unreachable dimension. That night I was restless, my heart was cryptically worried and took no time to break the silence. I picked up the phone which I wished I had never picked and heard about the misery. My heart shattered into pieces, it was raining that night (it had to be, in order to create the gloomiest atmosphere ever), shattered with dismay, and my heart crawled onto the broken glass leaving it in total disgust.

I still hear your whisper when the gentle breeze of night blows against my face, whistling the melodies of yours, and my heart ease with delight. Yet the distance, yet no difference, my heart is ever green for you and I know, so was yours.  

Life seems to promise eventualities that prove to be unjust and we are amidst by it. Swallowing the truth of life-  I still believe angels do come in our life.

Into Blogging

This is not a daily doing of me, I am not familiar to this but I shall seek the best in this and try to learn something out of it. I pray best for it and lets see where this journey of hope will lead me to. 

Today I sleep under this dark sky, tomorrow I shall wake up with the morning sun cherishing that god has given me another day to live and correct myself.

"I will try to share droplets of information through my own small means and any other possible ways.

therefore I would like to pay my homage to all the people who are into blogging .. thank you"